Most animals are driven by need
Eat
Fight
Reproduce
Survive
Humans are different
We are driven by want
Taste
Resolve
Love
Live
I don't want to live
But still
I don't want to die
I don't want to love or be loved
But still
I don't want to be alone
I don't want to resolve arguments and solve problems
But still
I don't want to be angry at the world
I don't want to taste or eat or fulfill any of my real needs
But still
I don't want to let myself just fade away
I don't want anything
But still
I don't want there to be nothing
This is not a valley I can climb out of
This is not a mountain I can fall off of
This is not anything
This is an endless abyss with not a single other thing in sight
This is apathy
I am apathy
I am nothing
